My True Feelings

Time passes so fast, its been a few months we've been together all this long, though u always wanted me to write something bout u, i've always forgotten and to be honest, i felt guilty for not doing it.. You must be wondering why i do it now ? maybe its because i miss you too much, can't sleep well, constantly waking up in midnight, not having a good night sleep..

Maybe sometimes my words are being harsh, i did hurt you much.. but my feelings are towards you, i really do care bout you..its just that i don't know how to express how worried i am..being with you does mean a world to me, i've changed so much that i hardly believe i do..all because i wanted you to be proud of..i want to be a world to you too..i've been trying so hard that i did somehow fell apart, but i stood up with my will , just wanted to see your smile..Im not being sarcasm here, but im telling the truth, no matter how hard it was, i will always try because i love you too deeply..

Sometimes when we argue, you questioned me why didn't i care bout your feelings...i do care a lot but just that you can't feel it..no matter what i do, i would have told you because i don't want to cheat on you..sometimes i just wonder have you ever cared bout my feelings? i stunt for a second, realizing how awful to have thought of that..because i just realize i've thought something bad bout you.. you've been worrying bout my doing all these long, be it when im sick or doing something recklessly..

I've been constantly asking you to change.. i know its hard.. i did with a hard route doing the same because i know i love you more than my pride..i once told you not to say all those harsh things when you're mad.. you always smile at me promising so.. but everytime we argue, you hurt me with those words, and i wanted you to know how awful it is.. but i never said so...be it whos right or wrong, im always the one who apologize.. because i know there's no right or wrong between us, its just a misunderstanding..do you know how badly i wanted you to thrust me and listen to what i said.. i really mean it.. i've never spoken in someone side..all i wanted is to let you understand my feelinsg.. not because im covering something that i did not do..i've told you everything, including things that you don't like much.. simply because i don't want to lie to you..

I just want you to know how deeply im in Love with you.. i love you so much that i can't even imagine..