Its Coming..

I have a bad feeling telling that its coming back again..
My worst nightmare..
The one im always afraid of..
The one that i can't control of..
The one im always being hurt of..
And the one im always running from..

If this is going to happen again..
Its going to be my 5th time facing it..
I have to end this spree..
I always wanted to..
But I always failed to..

Sometimes i asked myself..

Why do I..
Always have to be tangled with it..
Why do I..
Always have to deal with it..
Why do I..
Always have to hide from it..

I need to search for a solution..quick..
But..
Where can i find it..
When will i find it..
How can i find it..
And Who can i ask from..