Crack a Doo ! Haa !

My True Feelings

2010-04-22T21:03:00.000-07:00

Time passes so fast, its been a few months we've been together all this long, though u always wanted me to write something bout u, i've always forgotten and to be honest, i felt guilty for not doing it.. You must be wondering why i do it now ? maybe its because i miss you too much, can't sleep well, constantly waking up in midnight, not having a good night sleep..

Maybe sometimes my words are being harsh, i did hurt you much.. but my feelings are towards you, i really do care bout you..its just that i don't know how to express how worried i am..being with you does mean a world to me, i've changed so much that i hardly believe i do..all because i wanted you to be proud of..i want to be a world to you too..i've been trying so hard that i did somehow fell apart, but i stood up with my will , just wanted to see your smile..Im not being sarcasm here, but im telling the truth, no matter how hard it was, i will always try because i love you too deeply..

Sometimes when we argue, you questioned me why didn't i care bout your feelings...i do care a lot but just that you can't feel it..no matter what i do, i would have told you because i don't want to cheat on you..sometimes i just wonder have you ever cared bout my feelings? i stunt for a second, realizing how awful to have thought of that..because i just realize i've thought something bad bout you.. you've been worrying bout my doing all these long, be it when im sick or doing something recklessly..

I've been constantly asking you to change.. i know its hard.. i did with a hard route doing the same because i know i love you more than my pride..i once told you not to say all those harsh things when you're mad.. you always smile at me promising so.. but everytime we argue, you hurt me with those words, and i wanted you to know how awful it is.. but i never said so...be it whos right or wrong, im always the one who apologize.. because i know there's no right or wrong between us, its just a misunderstanding..do you know how badly i wanted you to thrust me and listen to what i said.. i really mean it.. i've never spoken in someone side..all i wanted is to let you understand my feelinsg.. not because im covering something that i did not do..i've told you everything, including things that you don't like much.. simply because i don't want to lie to you..

I just want you to know how deeply im in Love with you.. i love you so much that i can't even imagine..

2010-03-23T07:29:00.001-07:00

xD somebody just screwed me up for not updating my blog.. so here i am... AGAIN !!

I did posted something on the blog.. but yet.. being flame and screwed all the way again xD

nvm nvm... since im so free right now.. might as well talk something bout the "happenings" these days...

Sadly.. my uncle just passed away few days ago....though im not quite familiar with him..but still he had been good with me at least when he was there....just felt sorry for his family.... anyway we helped out to be receptionist for the "bak gam" for few days and attended his funeral...

After the sad case, i thought we had to be facing something good for the next day.... apparently its not what i expected...

After eating AWESOME dumpling from gambang...the nightmare begins...

1st stage.. i was so full after my dinner ( with the dumplings ) , i had to eat peppermint ginger to ease my digestion.. i thought it would have solved the problem.. then i took my bath after the dinner.. which worsen my situation.. but i didnt realize much so i just continue watching

Man.U vs Liverpool LIVE !!

after half time, i just happen to fall asleep and took a nap.. few minutes later... GG-ed

i drank a few DROPS of H2O and i just puked all the gross to the floor... and i happen to fell cause my legs are shaking.. OMG !! u wouldnt imagine how awful it was !! Fxxk !!

2nd stage.. so i had no choice but to clean myself up and bath.. fortunately.. my D which is my dear Girlfriend =D happen to hear whats happening as she didnt hang up the phone and reached my home just a few minutes later.. i was so glad but i didn't have the energy to express it.. so she helped out my house maid to clean up my mess.. and she comfort me and even cooked my some ginger drinks.. so everyones been wondering its good for the 2nd stage?

HELL NO !!

i drank a few DROPS of H2O and i puke AGAIN !! i was like WTF ?! so... i clean myself up AGAIN !! and go down the staircase AGAIN !! .. and im so sorry that my D has to clean up my mess AGAIN !!( my house maid slept )

3rd stage.. after resting for awhile , im starting to feel Okay ~ so she left and back to her house.. left me alone ( since my dad is asleep as well ) i lied on the bed and starts to calm myself down to sleep.. it did work !! for half an hour.. Fxxk !! i woke up.. can't sleep.. too hot.. went down to have my warm water.. went up to sleep again.. woke up after 10~15 minutes or so.. can't sleep AGAIN !! too hot AGAIN !! went down to have my wart water AGAIN !! went up to sleep AGAIN !!woke up several minutes later AGAIN !!

WTF !!

nvm i changed my mind.. so i decided to drink honey instead.. it happens to favors me =D

NOT !!

I puke AGAIN !! i was like... @%!#%&#$*(#@%#&@$

woke up in the middle of the night

not because that i had something in mind

just feeling something that is not going right

wake up, stand up, to on the lights

and i thought it was going all right

just happen to be hell of a night

vomit like im gonna tear off my mind

So.. have to clean up my mess and myself AGAIN...

Due to the frequent hang on this stupid blogger !@%!@ the story will be continued on next post

2010-03-23T07:27:00.001-07:00

ITS BEEN AWHILE SINCE I LAST UPDATE

Boys Being Sexism

2009-10-16T23:35:00.000-07:00

Why and How ? Let me show you some examples.

Reaction When Boys do these on him

1. Being hit/scold/slap, without hesitation, the boy will usually hits him back and adds up a few punches.

2. Being make fun of, he'll surely plan something evil behind his back, and revenge on him badly.

3. Kena " Fong Fei Gei " , he will surely do the same to him at least twice.

4. Someone's Birthday is coming, he will share with his friends to buy a RM100.00 present.

5. Being asked to go yumcha, they will usually go for " AA " system.

6. Being asked to fetch him, he'll surely find out a lot of excuses.

7. Being called during night time, he'll spill out different kind of symbols.

8. Being asked for a favor, he'll try not to help.

Reaction When Girls do these on him

1. Being hit/scold/slap, the boy will apologize.

2. Being make fun of, he'll be okay with it.

3. Kena " Fong Fei Gei " , Its still okay for him.

4. Someone's Birthday is coming, he will buy a RM100.00 present himself.

5. Being asked to go yumcha, he will be the 1st to pay the bills.

6. Being asked to fetch her, within 0.2 seconds, OKAY !!

7. Being called during night time, " Its okay, anything ? "

8. Being asked for a favor, 100% confirm he will do it.

2009-10-15T00:47:00.000-07:00

Sushi King Bonanza !

The crowd

Crap, the waitress took away our plates, these are all that left...

Imba-Sushi-King-Twin-Tower
with Han Nan and Shwu Teng as background

Crappy sushi king, the one we're waiting for decades - Sushi King Bonanza aka. sushi madness..disappointed me a lot...Even if i went for two times, the variety of options didn't change at all.. with sake, ebi, a few tempura, unagi, octupus, scallop spinning in my head, are these the only things they are capable of doing ?! crap, not even the famous TAMAGO could be found.. we have to side order to get sushi rice with cold egg on top of it.. haiz...what can i say ?

Kuantan Rules

一个伤感的梦境

2009-10-06T01:54:00.000-07:00

迎接十月的到来，

也是雨季的来临，

一次偶然的梦境，

我再次地见到她，

犹如命运的安排。

这梦幻式的剧情，

也因闹钟的鸣响，

打断虚构的联想，

敲醒睡梦中的我，

重回现实的意志。

无法实现的梦想，

也只能怪自己傻，

犹豫不决的自己，

总是提不出勇气，

说我真的很爱你。

My New Network Adapter

2009-08-03T04:17:00.001-07:00

After days of complaining Tmnet
After I've been told my line and modem are perfect
After I've took my PC to Vast IT for a checkup
I finally knew the problem which troubles my internet connection for a month
Its my c2pid Lan Adapter aka. Local Area Network Adapter
ROSAK !

This c2pid piece of metal cost me
Rm10.00 to check the PC
Rm25.00 for a brand new card
My brand new Adapter !!

Now that my problems are all fixed, im back to my SUPER FAST SMOOTH connection again..
Time to Rock 'n' Roll ~

Crap.. forgot bout STPM preparation...

KL one day trip

2009-08-03T02:08:00.000-07:00

Ahh.. I know its been kinda late to post this..but due to my stupid network adapter... i can't seems to upload any photoes, so i'll just update now =x

Cutting of the crap, the trip starts at 5.30, but our bus sort of got late, so we depart at around 6.00am.. everyone from other schools is wearing their school PJ suits, only us the SABS Sixers gang with jeans and T-shirts..Cool ~

When we enter the bus, the teachers limit us, no couple sitting beside each other.. sad case for FJK and YKT, and disappointment for Gary, kakaka, like always, im sitting beside Khang Sheng ...crap..oh well..

After one hour plus, we stopped by Temerluh for breakfast, and to warn everyone, the food totally sucks !! heres some photo for reference.. == , don't puke..

Spiciest Nasi Lemak ever tested..

Spicy Nasi Goreng which doesn't look spicy at all

Acid-liked Laksa

My Life-saver - Eclipse mints

After the crappy meal, the bus took off again... this time we have a little switch on seats, FJK, KT and Gary are finally able to sit with the girls..Haa, as for me ?! Khang Sheng of course.. haiz..
Since everyone woke so early, everyone eventually just got asleep, heres some black-mailed photoes of them, Enjoy =D

Gary...
Heng Dai - Khang Sheng

Unfortunately, only got these 2.. haiz... should have taken more =P

Few hours later, we've finally reached KL !
Haa !! Its about time
When everyone was so excited to get down from bus,
When Pavilion and Time Square are located so near to us,
When its finally our time to go shopping,
When everyone is in a hurry to go toilet !

The bus driver lost direction....
It took him about half an hour just to find a place to stop..
Crap...

Here we are, Istana Hotel, the place where Taiwan Education Fair was held...with almost more than 40+ colleges and university from all over Taiwan..maybe more.. didn't ask for the exact number..Blah blah, since its not the main reason why we got here.. so let just cut the crap..Forward please..

Okay, Its finally our free time, time for some lunch and shopping ~ Only 7 of us went Pavilion whereas the others went to Time Square...

Sakae Sushi
Keen Thung, Shu Min, Enwei, Gary

Khang Sheng, Me and Yap
Sashimi Salad ordered by Enwei

Forgot what it is, Salmon Sashimi if not mistaken, ordered by Shu Min
Total of what have Me and Khang Sheng ate.

This is what everyone ate.

It was fun eating there, but it really hurts in my wallet, ouch.. sakitnya hatiku...

After our meal, we shop seperately, haiz.. like always, im stuck with Khang Sheng again.. lol.. oh well.. we just go here go there, go here go there, and go here go there again.. since we have nothing to buy, just walking around peeping up on girls... unfortunately... Goddess of Luck was not with us.. Noo............. Just bunch of seafood there, if you know what i mean.. haha...
Later on, we passed by a shop named Banana Republik, arh ! my favourite brand, cause the name is so cool ~ hoho, went in there to have a look... browse some of the shirts and blazer, there's a tag in it saying ' MADE IN CHINA ' , wooh ! it must be cheap, i guessed.. and the price tag shows this RM 1,200.00 .... me and Khang Sheng were like.. WTF ?! as soon as we notice that, we acted like ' C'mon, there's nothing here that suit us, lets go for another shop ' The truth is, we can't afford a single piece of cloth there, even the cheapest one...

Later on, we went to Low Yat Sungai Wang and Time Square as our final destination..Gary bought himself a ram in Low Yat which cost him RM 80++, nasty...And lucky for me and Khang Sheng, some group of people asked us to record some lame jokes infront of the camera, she said its posibble for us to appear on TV.. we we're like Huh?! nevermind, we just did for fun anyway, i got nervous and my hand kept on shaking when holding the mike.. Phew, glad it was over >.< , anyway, we got some free gifts for return, some facial masks and some hair spray i guess..Arr, almost forgotten, Enwei bought herself a spect while we're recording the jokes.. Lol ~ The time is limited, so we didn't do much in Time Square.. Coincidently, Enwei met her friend there, so did us, we met Teng Hui there..haha.. after somewhile, bought a fruint punch, Banana Soya == , went to toilet, and here we go.. Back to Kuantan.. On our way back, we stopped by dunno where for our dinner... not to mentioned the food, but the price was like sorta high..oh well.. anyway, when everyone got into the bus, some were sleepy but some were energetic as ever ~ told some cold jokes, everyone laughed.. when we're out of jokes, its time for Enwei to tell her Ghost stories...All i remembered was, kuew teow, and kuew teow.. everbody was making fun of the story, eventually got her pissed, sorry >< , but we managed to persuade her to continue =P , so when everyone was listening, at the end of the story, she just poped out her fingers and said " Fingers !! " everyone got stunned.. and were like.. Har ?! LOL, it was part of her plan to scare everyone with the ghost story as background.. == , nevermind.. so she continued with her 2nd story, she warned us not to make fun this time.. so i listen carefully as if im into the scenario myself..then all of a sudden...She poped out saying " I found you ! " ...Crap.. kena tipu lagi == ... after awhile of crapping, we arrived our school bus stop on 12.00am, went back home, took a shower and fell into sleep.. Though the time is limiting, but we did managed to have some fun... Hopefully there will be a trip next time =x

13th of July

2009-07-13T01:47:00.000-07:00

Its schooling day like always.. but everyone's getting heat up with the coming result for our MUET test.. When i reached school.. i quickly asked my friends how to get my result through SMS..
It was something like : Muet <> and send to 36363... and the result just pop.. came out within a few seconds.. I got Band 4... which was !@#%@$&*#%(@#$ wheres my 5.. ROAR !!

Ok.. nvm..later on.. i got addicted to it.. keep on asking my friends for their Ic number.. and i didn't even bother bout the RM0.30 per sms..lol.. then everyone got band 3 / 4 , i was like...
relief ( evil smile )... ngek ngek ngek.. atleast everyone is accompanying me...wakakakak..
I know.. Im EVIL.. kakakak

Before our class starts, Thriple C from our class aka. Sungai Lembing boy did something "Evil" ..
He asked Sam for his Ic. No.. and when he got back the result, he edited the msg and changed it to band 2.. which freak out Sam and almost wanted to cry.. poor Sam.. Sathya helped CCC too..LOL.. but i did the same thing too..haha.. i lied to someone and told her that i got band 6 !! .. sorry, Shik Mei and Shik Wei.. =P ...and Shik Mei told her class that i got band 6.. and i got Booed by them.. Crap.. negative effect.. =x

As usual.. class still goes on.. after recess.. which is P2 period, Roduan class.. and as usual.. some dirty jokes from him.. kaka.. quite funny though.. 5 minutes later.. Deng Deng Deng..
Encik Mohd. Noor aka. " Mad Noor " announced that all Upper Sixers are required to go dewan kecil to take their Muet slips.. " Alamak, saya baru nak ajar saja. " replied Roduan.. oh well.. but he still continues his class.. Crap..

After that, we went down.. and saw everyone got heated up.. " Steamed " hoho, Gary got it 1st, everyone circled him and he got band 4.. which is categorized as " Satisfactory User " .. lol
Next on, Keen Thung got 210 which is 10 marks away from band 5.. Aaahhh...he screamed...
" If i get 21x , im gonna bang the wall " I said... i got it later on, and its 213.. Nooo !!!! !$!#&^@*#

Gary quickly ordered me to bang the wall, but thankfully dewan kecil has no wall for me to bang on...Phew... ngek ngek ngek, strategic thinking... Later on, Enwei got her result too.. when she saw it, she was like " Nooooo !!!! Arghhh !!! ", i sneaked through her paper and saw it.. 214..1 mark ahead of me..Crap.. Jun Hong got 215... Double Crap... but atleast Im 1 mark ahead of Chan Chee Hong, my class monitor.. wakakkakaka.. The funniest part was when Andrew told us his score.. 219 ...ok if i got that, im gonna jump from 4th floor.. but still. ROFL

Erhem...*cough* back to the topic..Its quite a disapointed news for us.. as far as i know.. only 3 of us got band 5.. and their score merely passed it.. but still.. we got alot of laughter today.. haha..

Just for a laughter..

The Top 10 bang wall candidates...
1. Andrew Ang - 1 more marks to band 5
1. Choy Mei - 1 more marks to band 4
3. Forgotten the name - 2 more marks to band 5
4. Jun Hong - 5 more marks to band 5
4. Sharon( how to spell? == ) - 5 more marks to band 5
6. Enwei - 6 more marks to band 5
7. Me - 7 more marks to band 5
7. Eric - 7 more marks to band 4
9. Chee Hong - 8 more marks to band 5
10. Keen Thung 10 more marks to band 5

The 2 luckiest candidates
Yung Yao - Approximately band 5 score
Sam - Approximately band 4 score

Congratulations to all those who are satisfied with their score.. And Good Luck to all those who intend to retake/resit.. As for me, I'll have to think bout it, RM 60.00 can buy alot of candies =P

P.S : For those who intend to retake/resit for the test, please inform your name Pn. Syamalah to form a special class specially for us..

Its Coming..

2009-07-12T04:00:00.000-07:00

I have a bad feeling telling that its coming back again..
My worst nightmare..
The one im always afraid of..
The one that i can't control of..
The one im always being hurt of..
And the one im always running from..

If this is going to happen again..
Its going to be my 5th time facing it..
I have to end this spree..
I always wanted to..
But I always failed to..

Sometimes i asked myself..

Why do I..
Always have to be tangled with it..
Why do I..
Always have to deal with it..
Why do I..
Always have to hide from it..

I need to search for a solution..quick..
But..
Where can i find it..
When will i find it..
How can i find it..
And Who can i ask from..

10 ways to make someone MAD !

2009-06-22T05:57:00.000-07:00

10 Ways for a girl to make a boy go MAD ( Edited )

1. Talking about your current boyfriend in front of your ex. / The other way round.
2. Flirt with other boy in front of your boyfriend.
3. Criticize him in front of a group of peoples.
4. Letting him figuring out what you're thinking.
5. Leaving him alone/ignore him when confronting a group of peoples.
6. Dump him for no reason.
7. Dump him with a reason saying Im a lesbian.
8. Go emo and scold him for no reason.
9. Reject his offer to help you but asking for others to help.
10. Slaps him for no reason and goes hehe.. WHAT?!

10 Ways for a boy to make a girl go MAD
( still conducting a survey among the girls, will update soon )